stay-stellar

It's been a long time since I have taken my art seriously. It's kind of sad! Ever since my last break up I kind of dropped out of the art scene and went in to the Con and Cosplay scene instead! I've made small pieces here and there, but I haven't made a real piece in a long time. I really should make some, but I just been so busy looking for a full-time job o I can work in the bay and get my path started. I guess it's a waiting game for a while and hitting up the figure art studio on Tuesdays. Hmmm, sounds like a good start for now


<3 Nathalie

Now apparently I have people that watch me on here. I'll make a positive post then. Things with my art have been going good lately. Going to take Paul's advice and put up some new things that I've made during the day. Happy happy rainbows and kittens!

I create things now only thinking about how much of a waste it is. Isn't art supposed to make you happy? Ugh, one comment kind of killed my inner peace. Criticism sucks when you don't ask for it, especially if it's true . . . Oh well, if it's a waste, it's a waste then. I have to accept it; waste of paint, of space, of time . . . I thought I was meant to create beauty eventually? I thought I was meant for something other than an ordinary cookie cutter life. I'm starting to ponder what to do with my life again, or perhaps it's just fear. Am I wasting my time? How do I know for sure? Should I listen to others? Is my creativity all a waste? Time will tell. O, human condition. I have no patience for it tonight . . . I feel stupid, meh . . .


Poop,

Nat

Wow, I haven't been on here in a while. Not like anyone reads this anyway but myself. My neighbors are perpetually coughing weed next door keeping me awake atm. But I had a beautiful vision, I guess you can call it. I'm thinking I might need models to help me out. But I need two people kissing. I'm sure there is a plethora of images on google or even on here of kissing people but it's more of ummm . . . Well, you see, I've always loved comics since like forever. So I was thinking each painting can be part of a whole. But I don't exactly want to divulge it until I've actually started it . . . Oh fuck it. So it's going to be about 4 paintings. The first is a passionate kiss which leads to the girl figure eventually dead on the floor. "Kiss of Death" like poison ivy, except for the chick dies haha. But it's going to be awesome. Kind of represents my awful decisions with relationships and how that's going to stay in my past. I've changed. I seriously just date the wrong people, but it is definately never happening again. I'm getting a groom from India! Lmao jk I deserve someone nice and not full of shit for once. Anyway . . .

My neighbors finally stopped coughing. Stoners!


Gn and sweet dreams . . .


<3 Nat

is a difficult fucking thing . . . LOL




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<3 Nathalie